Why I Support Cloning
The next couple of days will most likely be light on posting, as I have lots to keep busy with. Firstly, preparing for class registration and deciding how I'm going to torture myself during Winter term, while maintaining full-time employment.
Yay Me!!Secondly, I'll be editing and writing blurbs for Jake's new novel,
Black Whole Son. Go check it out if you have the chance and are not a work. Cuz, it is definitely NSFW! Or don't check it out, if you would like to maintain an innocent image of Jake. ;-)
Yay Jake!!Thirdly, there's the usual house chores and somewhere in there, work and sleep.
Stupid Work!!
Rolling my eyes at the Universe
It seems whenever I am on the verge of making a life directing decision, an opportunity comes along. Maybe it's a temptation or maybe's it's fate. I've recently learned of an opportunity that would, if I accepted (and was accepted), force me to deviate from full time schooling (at least anything anthropological related). And it's something that I would need to commit to for a long time. Which makes me think that it's only a temptation. Yes the money would be better and even further down the line...more money and travel, department head title and what have you, but...
It's not so much that I want to pursue this opportunity, it seems that it's a half-assed opportunity at that. Why doth the universe tease me so? To offer up the material security that I desire, through an apparatus I do not desire?
growls to selfMaybe I should just pray that I get struck by lightning, so that I can go buy a lotto ticket...Nah, It would probably work better if I sacrificed a few stray cats. Oh but the blood would be a terrible mess.
"Sorry hon, I got carried away with the stabbing and all."....passage of time....A dear friend just called while I was writing this post. She has reminded me that at one time I had all that finacial stability and good job stuff. And that I threw it out the window for one purpose. To go to school. That I had said to her and many others at that time:
"This is not how I saw, nor do I see as my future."So enough of this!
Bedwise is rightwise...
Waiting Game
I'm too impatient, at the moment. I have 5 days until I register for classes and I want to know what I'm going to be taking and how school is going to affect my income. Will I need a new job if I can't balance out 40 hours at the
Japanese Garden and a full load of classes?
To many gears in my head grinding now and not on what I would find to be creative things. Maybe I'll go do the dishes.
*edited cuz Spelling's COOOL!
The Idler
Make sure you have enough slack.iTunes- Piano Concerto No. 1 in F sharp minor- Rachmaninov
Speaking of Stars
Weather permitting, you might be able to catch Mars hanging out under the full moon this week. I went out tonight and was thankful for the clear skies. Mars is very cool to see in it's orangey brightness.
Go now! What are you waiting for? The squirrel commands you!
Starry Starry Night- Or Lack There Of
One of the things I dislike about living in a city the most, is the light pollution. Many many nights , I wish that I could just sit out in the yard and allow my head to wander the stars. There seems to be something to just lying on your back and letting your eyes drift into the light studded velvet of Nuit.
One night a while back (9 years ago) I found an open field and had a lay down in the center of it. The trees where far enough from my peripheral vision that I had an unobstructed view of outerspace. The nearest town was 5 miles away. Clouds drifted above me, creating a window of perception I had never experienced. With the static stars of a moonless night, the wisps of moisture that crossed my vision created a since of movement and I felt the earth spin.
I don't recall where my mind wandered that night or even of it did. I think that perhaps it was one of the few times there was no voice chatting at me, trying to occupy all the space in my head. I just lied there next to one soon to be my husband.
Another time I found myself in the mountains of Idaho. The fire had gone out and Jake and I where left to the almost pure blackness of a deep forest. Above us a small clearing of trees framing a sea of little lights. There were so many stars, I couldn't even pick out a constellation! And every point of light twinkled. We sat in silence.
I wonder how our society manages to not notice the transcendent beauty they are missing out on. And does it have any affect on the pysche of our civilization? I tend to think that the stories of gods and what have you stems from the awesome expanse of the starry night. That allowing yourself to drift, so to speak, outwards to the rest of the universe; connects you to the deepest part of yourself. But this is loose romantic talk. How can I say what I want to? I can site examples of men who have searched the stars and come up with some profound, if not at least interesting observations on the nature of things. What happens to humanity when there's to many lights to see beyond the atmosphere?
Yes,
Jake...I know, SPACE COLONIZATION ;P
iTunes- "Waterloo"- ABBA
Need More Agitation
I need some coffee badly. It's 10:00pm, I have tomorrow off and I find myself yawning. So one quick note and then off to grind some dark oily beans into a fine powdery dust.
I dreamt of spiders last night. 100's of spiders in jars, with bits of cardboard to eat. They looked like the
Hobo Spider, but more of a dried blood color. I felt sorry for them, but at the same time, I wanted them all dead and far, far away from me.
Some of you know how much I have struggled with spiders, others of you may think me silly. But for the record, they started it. One bit me in a dream when I was 5 and as much as I try to deprogram myself of this asinine fear. I can't shake it.
Off to make coffee, I'm feeling squeamish, suddenly.
Stupid, Stupid Head
So I'm trying to read up on this whole Eastern vs. Western thought thingy and now I have the Pet Shop boys in my head...
Make it stop!
MIM "West End Girls"
oi! oi!! OI!!!
oi!
And why the heck is it that when I search for Eastern thought I get a bunch of Starwars sites. OK I GET IT. Starwars = mythology or somesuch- I KNOW!! you don't need to shove it down my face...grr
No Named Post
Lately I've kept myself busy with
N8's blog, racking my brain with caffeine, so that I can communicate without waving my hands in the air. I find the challenge stimulating and hope that the thread he started about mythology keeps going for a little longer. If only for me to read and share one of my greatest passions.
Mythology and folklore has fascinated me since childhood. Stories that bring the symbolism in dreams to life or teach us the rites of initiation. From damsels in towers to animals in the forest, there is great knowledge about human nature to be gained by placing ourselves through the looking glass via a book.
I seek no truths, but my own. And even then there is no absolute truth within me. But sometimes the question of my own divinity collides with my own perceptions and I seek out the tower, only to find it on fire.
If I find my true will or my bliss, what next? I fear sometimes that if I find all my answers, I will cease to exist on this level of consciousness. Maybe I am the fool on the hill.
MIM: "Opiate" TOOL
Imaginary i update
It seems that I can take Algebra II as part of my first term at PSU. Yay!! happy dance. Now I just gotta figure out how to pay for it and the bills :)
I am very excited about the prospect of learning again, especially the part where I learn how to think and write cognitively again.
What's the Sq. Root of negative i ?
That damnable imaginary
i from Algebra II has come back to haunt me. Back in HS, I had the hardest time with that Algebraic function, so much that I quit the class and never received credit for it. No one seemed to be able to help me understand it, or I was to stubborn to listen. Either way, it seems that PSU requires it for admission to their institution.
GRR! GRR I say!
Now I have to take a course that 14 years ago I hated. And I have to do it before I take classes in January. *sigh*
MIM thanks to iTunes™ - "Exiled" (the Asylum Mix), Steven Flynn- Solace remixed
Music in my Head
As I ready for bed this evening I have The Beatles, "Strawberry Fields", forever looping into the Muppets Sing, "All together now". I guess the latter is orginally a Beatles song...but man, O'man.
Let me take you down, cuz I'm going to Strawberry fields... all together now...Nothing is real and nothing to get hung about... A-B-C-D, can I bring my friend to tea. No one I think is in my tree, I mean it must be high or low. E-F-G-H-I-J... Kerm I love you...
All thanks to two Scandinavians,
Jake and
X...you bastards.
